The Loaded Gun!
Emotional eating and figuring out triggers for this has long been an issue for me.
I got to a point in life that I was basically eating for any reason, happy, sad, frustrated, lonely, tired, guilty, anxious, rejected, bored… you get the picture..
But what I have learnt is that it is not just the trigger and my food drug of choice at that time that is the problem. It was also opportunity and situation.
I had set up my life (over many years of reinforcing poor choices) to have a constant supply of food, situations and opportunities to allow these triggered food reactions to occur. I had allowed my lifestyle to revolve around food – buying food, storing food, preparing food, eating food, blah blah blah..
The lap band took out the ability (for most of my eating) for me to binge eat and stuff my feelings down… The barrier that it put in place allowed me to slowly address the emotional eating and break them down. The opportunities and situations decreased. I began to make smart choices and re-frame my relationship with food and my feelings.
Now that I have had the lap band and it is adjusted to be a bit more open, and I can eat a little more, I have noticed that I need to work on this area a little more and revisit it again.
Earlier in the week I had a situation where I was feeling tired, anxious, worried and a little guilty. I was at work and near the “social club shop” where tempting treats of chocolate, chips and soft drink lay in wait. The chocolate did not survive…
I analyzed my behaviour a little later, figured out what was going on emotionally, and what else was a threat that day – why didn’t I stick to my plans… It was because I hadn’t prepared for work that day properly. I hadn’t packed the foods I knew I would need to have at my desk and avoid going into the “shop”. I didn’t drink enough water and my sleep pattern was more whacked than usual.
I have good, strong plans and work at them (really well) most days! I do not buy junk food for my house anymore, I have a supply of hummus and vegies to snack on, some sugar free 85% dark chocolate, and I have changed my habits. I now rarely watch TV (TV and eating used to go hand in hand for me – I watched (and ate) more hours away than I care to remember) I now prefer to exercise, read, go out, live an actual life.
But the point here is for me to keep acknowledging that successful people plan; they then work their plan, learn from their mistakes, reflect – adjust and move forward…
The Lesson learnt from today;
*Plan and follow through with the plan and have a back up plan in place.
* Work out and write down what is going on and bothering me before I reach mindlessly for the junk food… (If I can see it at the time) If I don’t see it till after, acknowledge what is going on and figure out a way to constructively deal with it.
*If I fall down – don’t kick myself while I am down there! – Help myself get up take stock and reflect; What didn’t work, why? who is involved? What can I control? (i.e my reaction, behaviour, attitude) What can’t I control? (other people? their actions and reactions, work load etc) What will I change and adjust? What is a realistic new and modified plan? How do I keep moving forward.
And while I think that all this writing and reflecting about it is good, the proof as they say is in the Pudding…. (Did someone say pudding 🙂 )
This type of thinking and reflecting can apply to more areas of life than just food, diet and exercise. With the craziness of “New Years Resolutions” just weeks away, It may help to think about the cycle of planning, working the plan, reflecting and readjusting plans, rather than, off the cuff resolutions that make you feel crap when you have forgotten about them in a matter of days, weeks or months.
2012 is shaping up to be tough year… It will be tough to maintain the fitness and weight loss that I have built this year… That is the challenge though and one I aim to meet!
Thanks for stopping by, till next time